Tonight was a good night. Soccer with the boys, and met a new guy. It was all clean, wholesome fun, which I haven’t experienced in a loooooooooooong time. I forgot how much fun it is to just goof off with guys and play soccer. No weed, no alcohol, no sexual shit.. Just barefoot soccer in the sun, pizza, jackass, & lots of laughing. Also, the guy who’s been an asshole to me for as long as I can remember was being..nice. And flirty. And calling me cute. I don’t see myself as cute, I’m just the derpy me I’ve always been. Wtf.. Boys are weird. Speaking of which.. I don’t know what to do about this other guy.. He is obviously really interested and likes me a lot, and I like him too, yet I don’t want a relationship.. I want to be able to flirt with/do things with whoever I want and not be attached like that. But at the same time, I don’t want to hurt him. I don’t know what to do, and it’s frustrating. And if that makes me sound like a slut, so be it.